RIP my pet dog today...

[Babyswan]

had a very sad day today, the dog died this morning. Very sad. Took a turn for the very worse since Sunday and I phoned OH in Japan last night, warning the end is probably nigh. No better this morning.
Worse in fact.
Phoned the vet I'd abandoned in Sept cos I wasn't happy. Yes they're open. Got box for her, walked down in the bitter cold east wind. convulsing along the way. Laid her down in box on table/scales. She just passed away there and then, over a few minutes. I had to yank a load of tissue from the dispenser, I can tell you. i was alright till I entered the Vet's.

Buried her down the end of the garden before rigor mortis set in.

Bit teary eyed again typing this...

I brought her out this morning. Nothing doing. No walking, no nothing. I picked her up again to bring her for a last look at her normal walk, burst into floods of tears (really tearing up now!) and carried her back. It was then I called the vet.

anyway. emailed the mrs. and attached some films I took last night.

I have the chickens at least. Not in the mood for them though, with the foul weather, sorry for the pun.

I just couldn't believe it. After the burial, I went in the house and looked over to see if she'd stirred from her bed or her favourite spot on the couch. I imagine this will happen for quite some time. I kept looking for her today, to see if she wanted to go out...terrrible

[JennyWrenn]

I have sent you a PM

jenny

[Jasmine]

I am so sorry for your loss Babyswan.
You will hear her little paws for weeks to come but take comfort from the fact that she is trying to tell you she is still with you.
Remember the happy times and the fantastic life she had with you.

[Tig]

We know their time will come before ours in the normal run of life, but it really does hurt when their time on this earth is up

Don't be too sad BS - you gave her your love and in return she gave you hers



x Tig

[Babyswan]

Thank you Jenny, Jasmine, Tig.

yeah it's true, I've been trying to positively reinforce myself that she lived like a queen. She really had a good life. My father took her when she was two, mad as a hatter,so she was. couldn't let her out without a lead. Mellowed quite a bit. After Dad died in '01, we gradually took her for more 'homestays'. when we were at the world cup on '02, the she kept escaping from my mother's who would go up and collect her from our doorstep!

She was on television, photo to follow, and almost made it into the same photo as Bono, when the 4 boys were making a video earlier in the year,nearby.

[snowowl]

:'(So sorry babyswan i cant say anything to make you feel better its the worst thing about having a dog and you love them like a child and loose them so soon.
I am dreading the time i have to face it i cant even think of the day so i now how you are feeling.

[Deleted]

Sorry for your loss Babyswan i know the pain, I put my 14yr old german shepherd Bruce down in nov and cried on and off for 3 days its heartbreaking still see him in the garden at the corner of my eye sometimes

[Dutchy]

Sorry to hear of your loss BS.
She was my namesake I believe?
At least she did have a good life and you will have loads of fond memories to look back upon.

[Ladygardener]

So very sorry BS, she was part of your family but now she's gone. Her memory however will always be with you and memories are such precious things, you can take them with you no matter where you are or what the time is. She lived a good life with loving family around her, you will no doubt miss her for a long time, lovely looking she was too

[Babyswan]

thanks lads, (incl lassies)

the house was a bit empty and quiet today alright. I gave her a few calls anyway, why, I don't know.

I must clear up her uneaten food bowl. I'll leave the water bowl full and an empty food bowl till OH gets back. I was going to wipe down the (relatively) new back door, where she scratched to get in. Will wait too.

Reminded me of Brookside, when Damon's Dad, redecorated the house as a surprise, only for Sheila to get very upset, as it had previously been decorated by her recenty deceased Damon. Sad, amn't I?!

[JennyWrenn]

No not sad BS - I still call out my dog's name in the garden

Not sure what the neighbours think but I dont care

I also left a full water bowl out for a month

[maggy]

I really feel for you BS I know how you are feeling, I went through the same thing 4 years ago, that was my first dog and I had no idea how heartbroken I would be. Tim was nearly 14 and like your little dog he kept collapsing ! he had had a couple of seizures! in the last couple of months, but went suddenly just after I had had him in the garden for his last walk at night.

We buried him in the garden as well, and I planted forget-me-not on his grave, its nice to ave him close and I even talk to him when I'm doing the garden ( strange people aren't we)

I have another little man now he isnt a replacement for Tim, he has his own funny little ways, but Tim will always have a special place in my heart and memories.

We found that there was a big gap in our lives without a dog, I had said I couldnt go through that again! but Im glad I did get another, as he has helped.

I hope your O.H. is alright , it does take a few months to get over losing a loved pet, and some people that havent had and lost a pet can sometimes be cruel! they dont mean to be I know, I never understood until I had one.

[Babyswan]

thanks again

b s